Giving Myself Grace

Sixteen down.  With the second session of treatments complete I now have sixteen treatments down.   It seems like an  insignificant number considering the goal is fourteen for each session, but I am praying for it to be a miraculous number come February 3, 2015 when I have a body scan once again to determine the status of the renal cell cancer. 
I have found some of the hardest parts of this for me personally is to accept help when offered, ask for help when needed, and give myself grace when I am not feeling well.  That last one is something I've been working on for a while- giving myself grace- in a lot of areas of my life.  Certainly now without any outward evidence of physical ailments I find it difficult to stop, slow down and rest. As a young person I had it drilled in my head that if you weren't doing something or accomplishing something you were lazy;  "A lazy, no account, good for nothin' slacker".   There are something like 30 verses in the bible that talk about lazy people, who wants to be associated with that?!

Still Waters in Tahoe CA

But we also have to remember that there are many verses where God gives us: peace, that can only come from Him.  It's okay to rest, rejuvenate and refresh.
Psalms 23:2 reminds us-

He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters,

God doesn't want me in the desert, or beside turbulent seas, but resting in peace and near the waters of quietness. 

I'm a work in progress, working on giving myself grace during this time of healing in this field trip of life......  Think I'll go to the beach.

 

Lido Beach, Sarasota FL