I feel so vulnerable at after these treatments. I have noticed that Satan wants to attack and use me more now that my defenses are down.You know the drill- you don't feel good and something starts that little voice in your head yapping. Then I generally take something either personally that I shouldn't have or the incident grows from one to two to three until I have a 3 ring circus of drama in my head. Why do I let that happen?! I recognize it but too often I open my mouth before I can stop it and the hurt pours out all over whoever happens to be near.
I believe the key things in this situation for me to realize are:
1.My defenses are down. We are so much more vulnerable when we are sick or hurt. Pray for God to give you strength to with stand the temptation to just react in a knee jerk fashion.
2.Hurt feelings. Feels should not dictate the way you act. Allow your faith to be larger than your feelings. Give your faith the steering wheel.
3.Speaking. Know when to keep your mouth shut. Like your Mama told you, "If you can't say something nice don't say anything at all."
Many times our reaction is fear based, fear of being used or taken advantage of; a fear that someone will not like us, there are many reasons. But remember you will either feed fear or you will feed faith and courage. . Peter got out of the boat to walk on water with Jesus, but when he took his eyes and thoughts off Jesus he began to sink in the heavy waves.
It's okay, get out of the boat, or out of that 3 ring circus in your head. God wants us to focus on Him, have courage over our circumstances and walk on the water with Jesus.
“Come,” he said.Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!” Matthew 14:29-30
