No more masks. For years I wore the mask of happiness and
confidence. Having difficulties in
my marriage, my job and finances, anytime I had to be in public I put on the
mask so no one could see my faults, insecurities or what I considered to be my
failures. It was exhausting and
took its toll on me mentally and physically. My doctor prescribed drugs for depression, and after losing
three days I began to function with the drugs in my system. That’s pretty scary
in it’s self right? Life was good
for a while; but then the same tune started playing in my head - doot doot, doodle, doodle, doot, doot,
do do… You can hear it can’t you…. the three-ring circus, well out comes the masks.
“ Confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The earnest prayer of a righteous person has great power and produces wonderful results.”
James 5:16
Perhaps if I had lived out this verse, things could have been
different. But I didn’t feel like
I had anyone I could “confess” to and well, who wants to do that anyway?
It is in the darkness we hide, (mask) our sins (faults,
insecurities and failures).
Look for a trusted friend that you can share your feelings with; someone that will pray with you, heartfelt prayers for your healing and
restoration.
Since I have lost my job, my home is in short sale and my
finances are much, much lower than they have ever been, I feel freer than I
ever have. I should be hearing the pipe organ for the three-ring circus, but I
feel peace! It’s all out in the open and no mask required. I have trusted
friends I have asked for prayer.
I am trusting God, doing my
part and knowing that whatever the outcome, God is in control and has my
interests - because I am on His best list ( Insert Big Smile Here).
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